Although people who are really close to me wouldn’t use this word to describe me, I often feel like I’m all over the place, but cover it very well.

You see, I’m usually really good at starting anything- that spark gives me unmeasurable motivation. Also, being an aries woman, I love jumpstarting anything and everything. I book that hotel, I organize that weekend plan, I come up with ideas all the time. And if anything goes forward, It makes me proud to know that I’ve done my bit.

When it comes to plans that have nothing to do with my personal wellbeing or growth, I am REALLY organized. But when it is for myself and only myself that I’m doing something, that’s when the story changes.

The spark of starting things is still there:

• I buy oils and start painting again (this lasted a couple of weeks)
• I start doing pilates and will probably get bored of it (currently on day 7 and really happy about it- how long will I keep going??)
• I found a bass guitar at home and convinced myself that was my next hobby (tried for 20 minutes)
• I think I want to start blogging and buy a freaking domain (???) only to post a couple times

I admire people who are disciplined enough to assert goals and fulfill them. I am not like them.

Not being consistent is kinda childish, but I think I just fuel on motivation, and that can be good for starters, but I just have to stay committed if I want to better myself.

It’s the one thing that I love and hate at the same time about me. Who knows, maybe some day I’ll change?

I’ll keep you posted (even if nobody reads this, I’ll keep posting. I’ve paid for a domain ffs!!)👻